Each night, when I go to sleep, I die. And the next morning, when I wake up, I am reborn. - Mahatma Gandhi

The thinker

Thursday, September 3, 2009

How long have I stopped writing? Writing the way I want to see myself as. Does that even make sense? None of what I write these days matter to me. It doesn’t make me think. It’s too transparent. It’s exactly what it’s supposed to be. That’s it. No room for thought. No nothing.

I forget now what started me writing. Maybe it’s the desire to sound more important that I really am. And that with the use of words, I can be more than what I really am. 

I couldn’t sleep again tonight. My upset stomach wouldn’t let me. 

Soon enough, I’ll be turning 21. And right now, and right here, I feel like I have nothing to show for it. Maybe it’s because learning the Japanese language isn’t really worthwhile for me. It never has been. For the past several years — back to when I started learning the language — I haven’t really been motivated enough to actually improve. Right now I study. But then that just makes me wonder more than ever: Is the reason behind this drive to study the fact that I have need of this knowledge? Maybe so. 

I need the knowledge now because I’m in Japan. But when I go back, it becomes useless to me — you see? 

I don’t know what I want in my life. I’ve been racking my brains for an answer since I got here. And I still haven’t gotten one. Stubborn brains.

I’m starting to get sleepy. Maybe I should try reasoning with my tummy that I need to wake up pretty early.

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Tiffany Chua a student from UP diliman, studying so she can learn how to read your mind. Who loves yellow and orange, and has a blatant love affair with Hello Kitty. Oh! And she also loves wasabi -- which disgust people.


And while she loves the study of Psychology, she's currently an exchange student at Nagoya Gakuin University so that she can learn how to watch Japanese dramas without the subtitles. 

 

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